untuk awak

awk. ye awk. kenapa mesti awk slalu ade dlm kepala kita? kita x nk igt or fikir psl awk. tp awk slalu sgt ader dlm kepala kita. awk. kita doa biar hilang rasa ni. tp rasa tu x hilang2. awk. awk tahu x yg kita admire awk. ye. kita admire awk. tp kenapa awk kadang kadang tahu and kadang kadang mcm x tahu? awk. kita betul2 x tahu mcm mne utk x fikir psl awk. kita x nak pon awk. kita nak jd neutral. nak fikir psl study je. tapi awk. otak kita ni x nak dgr ckp kita. dia tetap fikir psl awk. awk. betul ke x proper kalau gurl make the move first? tp kita bukan nak ckp yg "i love u" or "u love me" tuu. kita just hope awk bole knl kita. we be like a friend. like a good friend. kita nak mcm tu. tp kita takut. kita takut awk salah sangka. tapi awk. bukan kita yg nak ada rasa ni. kita x mintak pun. kita siap suruh awk jd matchmaker kita lagi kan? tp awk. cm mna lah rasa ni boleh ada? kenapa bila awk tegur kita teguran awk tu msuk dlm hati kita? kenapa?

i hurt so much to become a secret admire..

to you..

i'm sorry that i cried. i cried without reason. why did it is always easy to crying just because of you. and the funny thing is you don't know a thing about it. that's the risk of being a secret admire huh? my degree life has started and i tried to make myself busy just so i don't think a bit about you. i become close with someone that i proudly call a friend. although i just meet him. but still. why you always in my mind? could you answer it? i always ask Allah to take this feeling away. cause its hurt me a lot. to think that you will never know about it. my friend ask me to confess but i couldn't . i cant proceed when i know you will rejected me. please. please make this feeling go away. cause it hurt. :'(

cinta antara lelaki dan perempuan. couple? kawin? Insyaallah bermanfaat.

assalam. alhamdulilah. minggu pertama kehidupan sebagai pelajar telah bermula. kalut jugak lah kesana kemari. mana yg kne pergi HEA mne yg kne pergi jumpa KP mne yg kne pergi buat PC. mcm2 kerja first week. tu pon x settle lg. alhamdulilah berjumpa dgn kawan2 baru yg baik2 semuanya. :) ehh~ maaf melalut kejap. haha.

sebenarnya post ni nak kongsi mini series yg InsyaAllah bermanfaat. Heemmm~~ pasal ape ye? tgk tajuk lahhh. psl couple. hope bermanfaat. kalau bermanfaat kongsi2 lah pd yg lain. jika tidak. sepuluh jari maaf dipinta. :) tiada cinta antara lelaki dan perempuaan.. yg ada hanyalah cinta antara suami dan isteri.. aq pon pernah bercinta. dan x cakap pon diri ni baik. bnyak lg ilmu yg harus dituntut. sbb tu nak kongsi bende ni. merasa diri utk dicintai dan mencintai adalah fitrah. yg membezakan adalah cara kita menghadapinya.. :D

intro. :)

episode 1

episode 2

episode 3

sorii!!! link episode 4 x jumpe.. lau rajin cri sendiri yeee.. hehee.. ^^

episode 5

alaaa.. sorry.. 6 pon x jumpaaaaa.. :(

episode 7

episode 8

and x jumpa gakkkk 9!!

:)

HAPPY WATCHING YE. HOPEFULLY IA BERMANFAAT BG KORG MCM MNE IA BERMANFAAT BG SAYA. BE WELL.  ^^

to him. if you know who u are. these are words that i'll never able to say it to you.

conversation:

me: aq takut lah x kawen. dah la u aq tu llki dah ramai pupus

him: perempuan biasa risau psl jodoh. npe ek?

me: bg aq sbb llki yg nak buat suami tu dah kurang. haha.

him: jgn risau. tuhan kn da jnji pmpn baik utk llki baik. insyaAllah.

me: mmg lah kan. tp kadang2 aq pk baik ke aq nak dpt suami yg baik nnt.

him: sbb tu kne muhasabbah diri selalu perbaiki diri. mudah-mudahhan Allah bntu.

simple je kan conversation tu? from a friend to a friend without anything in mind. but u know what. i cried. like seriously cried. sbb it really touch my heart. aq x tahu knpe b4 this org tegur aq tp msuk telinga kiri keluar tlinge kanan. and kau tegur aq sikit je. Allah bukak pintu hati aq. sedangkan kita x pernah borak pon sblum ni. we know each other for few years kan. and that was our first conversation. and kau ader lead prayer time kita ramai2. thats when i felt something. perasaan tenang. aq bukan someone yg senang nak suke org mcm yg kau cakap. bukan kau sorg llki yg aq pernah jd makmum. true. aq pernah crush ngn org lain dulu. tp bukan mcm mne aq crush kat kau. aq hormat kau. and aq malu sbb aq boleh ade RASA ni dgn kau. sgt2 malu. aq mintak maaf as a friend aq x patot ader RASA ni. tp aq tahu aq mcm x layak je utk kau. sbb tu aq doa je biar Allah tu dekatkan jodoh kau dgn aq. and i told about that aren't i? but jokingly of course. haha. tp kalau mmg bukan kau jodoh aq, aq redha. atleast kau buat aq dekat dgn DIA. kan?? mungkin Allah cipta perasaan aq pd kau bia aq lebih dekat dgn DIA. but dont get me wrong. aq berubah bukan sbb kau. aq berubah sbb aq yg nak. and kau dtg utk igtkan aq je. tp sebenarnya org yg dekat dgn aq je nampak ape yg aq ubah tu. sbb aq perlu perbaiki diri kan?  :) few days later bnyak soalan pelik2 aq tnye pd kau kan. kau pon tahu tu pelik tp kau layan je. tq 4 that. kau ader ckp kat aq, kau x nak kpel2. nak cri isteri je trus. and kat u kau tu ramai dgt calon2 yg ada. ustazah pon ramai kat situ. and i said jokingly "kau belajar lah dulu, 2 tahun lg aq ngorat kau ek". haha. and you said "dah2 jgn menggedik". haha. sometimes aq rase yg kau tahu aq suka kau. but sometimes aq rase kau sgt2 clueless. but i prefer u clueless until the right time come. sbb aq x nak friendship kita hancur. 

aq cter kat mmber aq. dy ckp sbnrnya kau dah tahu. and dia ckp better aq lupakan je RASA tu and cri org lain. tp dia x tahu yg aq dah try bnyak kali utk lupa RASA itu. org kata istiharah utk kalau kita nak kawen je. tp bg aq, aq buat istiharah tu sbb if kau x baik pd aq, aq doa Allah hilangkan RASA ini. and kau tahu x tiap kali aq buat solat tu your name pop up in my fb. but i'm still not confident. sbb mungkin itu coincident. and x de kne mngene pon dgn solat yg aq buat tu. aq bukan seorang ustazah and masih bnyak yg aq kne betulkan. and i really believe in fate. and kau pon ada ckp x guna bertepuk sebelah tgn kan? insyaAllah. aq berusaha dgn berdoa agar pintu hati kau terbukak when the right time comes. if kau mmg bukan utk aq. aq yakin Allah akan tolong aq hapus RASA ni. because i pray for that. aq ader RASA ni bukan aq nak ajak kau kpel ke ape. aq dah lama dah tglkn bnde tu sume. and aq happy mcm ni. I'm just hopping you give me a chance to know u better.

good luck utk study kau. good luck utk masa depan. be well. be healthy. and till we meet again. take care. :)

new beginning. new life. new class. same old place. ^^

salam alaik... huahhhhhhhhhggghhh... lmenye x mengupdate belog nie.. update pon ader ke yg sudi bce? aiseyh2.. hehe... alhamdulilah.. few days back result penerapan dah keluar.. and alhamdulilah alhamdulilah alhamdulilah diberi peluang utk melanjutkan pelajaran..

so.. curious x nak tahu smbg kat mne.. haha.. same old same old.. ya Allah.. kuat sungguh jodoh dgn pilah tersyg ni.. dah 3 thun tmbah lg 3 tahun.. INSYAALLAH will do my best.. Allah knows the best.. kita meminta utk keperluan.. DIA memberi yg diperlukan.. soo.. hai lecture2... berjumpa lg kita.. hai restoren cinta dua.. remember me? ^^

but sad thing is terpisah jauh dr mereka2 ni.. yg paling jauh tu yg kat sebelah  tu.. sob sob.. mne kita nak cari kawan mcm awk sume ni.. slalu kat kelas ber'empat'.. projek pape ber'empat.. skrg dah tgl berdua je.. nsb baik pika ader.. sob sob.. hope nnt awk berdua x lupa kat kami kat sini ye.. oh my oh my.. really will miss u both.. especially you NORHAZIRAH AZHAR..3 thun stick close to me and be my friend.. SANGAT SANGAT berterima kasih.. mse habes dip dulu x sempat nak peluk kuat2 sbb igtkan deg jmpe lg.. tp kita hanya merancang.. Allah yg menentukan.. Nnt ader rezeki kita dtg perak bwk kita jalan2 tau~~~..really gonna miss u dear..
and for you MR popo.. jage diri baik2 kat S.A tu.. aq pinjam pika tauuu~ will take care of her.. don't worry..hehe... so.. nah gamba!

and x lupe gak... mereka bertiga ni.. tahniah awak2.. :)

x lupa juga myB jumpa budak berdua ni nnt.. if korg accept tawaran tu lahh.. hehhee

and utk dewi, farisa, farah and fatini.. gudluck utk korg kat tempat baru... best of luck okeh.. ^^

perhaps i may not be important to u.. tp thx utk friendship yg korg bg kat kita sepanjang pejalanan diploma kat kuala pilah nun.. :)

hahaa.. oke dah puas ngs and gelak sorang2.. lots of love.. salam.. :)

Anak teruna makcik Rahimah- by Sakeena

salam alaik. hye. hola. anyeong. hheee. mcm lame dah kan da update kat blog nie. even blog yg x berape org nk bce nie. lately x tahu la knpe tp mcm hilang trus mood nak bce novel. mungkin x kena ngn jiwa kot? so last2 beli novel baru n alhamdulilah habes pon. haha.

tajuk novel ni "ANAK TERUNA MAKCIK RAHIMAH" WRITTEN BY SAKEENA. terbitan Jemari Seni. so may be ramai yg dah bce pon novel ni. so bg yg belum bace this is my review about this novel.

price: rm20.00
m/s: 489
genre: love

so basicly novel ni psl Ain Zahra dgn Amr Waseem. Ain ni mcm jurutera tp kat hospital kot. sbb duty dy betul2 kan medical appliance yg ader dkat hospital nun. yg si Amr waseem ni lak doktor. dorg nie basicly mcm tom and jerry. siape jerry siape tom tu bce lah sndiri ye. hehe. pantang berjumpa. nak dijadikan cerita dorg ni kne arrange marriage.  tp bukan arrange marriage yg parent tentukan and kite x knl tu. ni arrange marriage yg kite knl tapi kite x sebulu, so ala2 mcm kne kawen pkse. hahhaa. sbb ain mmg sgt2 x suka waseem. in fact dy dah nak putus tunang dah pon. but there are sweet thing about arrange marriage kan? restu ibu bapa tu sanggat penting. and yg lg best tu. makcik rahimah tu yg melamar ain dkt mekah tau.. so? from enemy become spouses. haha. mesti best kan? mesti korg kate ala ni mst ala2 versi vanilla coklat bagai kan? may be yes and may be no. because each writter ader keistimewaan dy sendiri utk menarik minat kite membace jalan cerita nya kan? so.. curious about how their journey toward  jannah? and how waseem try to win ain heart and vice versa? read it. :)

to let go...

him who i had loved.. terima kasih utk kenangan.. it makes me stronger.. I'll let you go now.. please be happy with her.. i'm sorry for what i had done either realized it or not.. :) i'm happy that you happy now.. and i'm happy that i can let you go..


"A new day gives a new chance, a new day gives a new hope, a new day gives you a new chance and hope to find happiness. move on and chase you happiness, beauty"- quote in sandal bungga2 by faziela.-


new day finally.. :) lega rasanya bila dapat memaafkan org dgn seikhlas hati...

ANGRY + DISAPPOINTED

marah geram sedeh.. that what i felt yesterday. hari ni baru dpt nak luah kat sini kan. sbb kalau nak cter pon x thu nak cter spe.. ape perasaan ek bila kita jemput kawan kita dtg kenduri kite and dalam 10 org yg kita ajak tu sorg je yg dtg. sorg je. SEORANG SAHAJA!!!!!!!! if aq jemput last minute x pe lah kalau xnak dtg.. ni aq dah jemput awal2.. and the best part is sume ader alasan tersendiri ek? ohh HOW NICE OF THEM!!!!! kalau rumah msing2 jauh beribu batu tu xde lah aq nak jemput.. ni rumah dekat je..  if korg dtg pkl 10 pon and datang TOLONG MAKAN je pon aq x kesah lahhhhhh... but what did i get? haha. so nice huh? and yg sorg dtg tu pon nsb baik dia dtg sbb dy baru balik dr mlaka the day before.. if dy pon x dtg??? (AND SERIOUSLY aq sangat terharu dy datang. that a lot girl! )   GET WHAT I MEANT?? and HONESTLY lepas ni if sape2 tnye psl open house or kenduri or what so ever dekat rumah aq.. YOU JUST PULL THE TRIGGER!!

sudikah awk..

salam.. hye korang.. ni nak share something nie.. td saja2 dok godeh youtube tu then terjumpa video nie.. may be ramai kot diantara korg yg dah lama tau psl video nie.. yg x berapa nak thu kewujudan video ni mcm saya.. meyh kita tgk sat nak?? x lama pon.. 6minit lebih ja ha.. ^^

haa.. da tgk dak?? ngee.. so apa yg hangpa dapat dari video ni? hopefully dapat la something ye.. bagi mereka2 yg gatai macam cek ni.. nak kongsi something...

1)bila kite tgk org berkapel.. ader x terlintas dlm hati... jelesnya tgk org tu kpel.. pi mana2 ada org dok teman.. kalau dok tgk cerita hindustan sampai menangis kuar hinggus tu ha ader org pujuk.. walhal aq nak tnya something... apa yg beza antara KAWAN LELAKI / PEREMPUAN (kire mcm bff lah nie. ^^ ) dgn KAPEL LELAKI / PEREMPUAN? hehe..

2) bila kite tgk org dah kawen... wahhh.. bestnya kawin.. nak kawen gakkk (ni slalu jd kat aq la.. gatal sgt kann.. hahhaa.. blajar pon x habes lg.. duit mak bapak pon x balas lg da pikir nak kwen.. cehhh apa2 la hang ni ziqa.. ) tapi... sedia ke kite nak kawen? kawen tu mmg la senang.. nak pikul tanggung jawab tu susah kan syg2? tanggungjawab sebagai seorg anak pon x betul lg.. (bg aq laahhh.. kalau korg rase korg ok bgus lahh)...

so... just nak ckp.. bg awak2 yg mcm saya.. yg jeles tgk org lain ader kpel.. yg jeles tgk org lain da kawen.. ckp dekat diri sendiri... setiap makluk tu Allah jadikan berpasangan.. just tgu cepat atau lambat... it work.. because i'm doing it all the time.. bila sy jeles dgn kawan2 saya,.. i done that.. ^^

p/s: i'm only 21.. so post ni kne dgn mereka2 yg lbey kurang umur sye lah ye.. kalau yg dah berkerjaya and yg dah complete sume tu doalah supaya anda didekatkan dgn jodoh anda.. In Sha Allah DIA maha mengetahui..

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man with a hungry face is so cute..
man with a tired face is so annoying..
man with a patient face waiting for someone is so cool..
man with a angry face we should not near..

:)

a day with a bright smile. :) (buying new novel. haha !! )

yeay!! hari ni terlepas kandang kejap.. hahhaa.. poyoss sungguh ayat kan?? nope la.. tp dapat hangout dgn my friend.. ANDDDD the best part is~~~~ sye beli novel baru!!!!! hahaha.. (gelak bahagia).. kesian mangsa yg menjadi peneman beli novel tu..( but sadly dy x suke amek gamba.. so xde gamba dy... hahha) ha,.. bru tahu kalau teman org gile novel mcm mne.. ngehh ngehh ngehh (gelak jahat ).. and then kitorang pergi tgl wayang skali.. STAR TREK INTO THE DARKNESS... best!! action.. x rugi kot korg bayar mahal utk tgk cerita tu... 2 hours gak lah duration dia... ^^ here some pic.. :D

ni la cter yg kitorg tgk. quality gamba x memuaskan. marah sama camera man. =.='

next movie in the list. haha. can't wait. dah buat appointment dah. 

tara~~!!!!! 3 buah je mampu beli kali ni.. :( tu pon kalau bole nak amek 4 td..

finish the day with steamboat as our dinner.. :)

cheese written by cik qwerty.. :)

second novel yg cek nk kongsi.. hehe.. ha yg ni novel bru.. best jgak (kalau x best x kan la nak kongsi ngn korg kan? hehe)

so basicly.. novel ni about love.. kalau org yg suke bce nove psl cinta yg comel-comel kiut miut yg bole buat x tidur mlm sbb nak habeskan bce novel sile lah bce ( plus bole buat korg senyum nagis and gelak sorg2).. hehehe.. aq bce dlm 1 hari je.. and then sape2 yg bace tu mesti rse nak llki mcm Adi Ashq tu.. SERIOUSLY!! because dy sangattttttttttt sweet.... and dy sgt penyabar... wooo.. if in realiti dlm suami mcm tu gerenti rumah tangga aman permai ( but ofcos la si isteri pon jgn keras kple sgt.. sbb syurga isteri still bwah kaki suami.. hehe )..

lg 1 yg best psl novel ni is about friendship.. sbb dlm dunia ni mmg senangggggggggggg sgt kite nak cari kawan... tapi nak cari SAHABAT tu difficult gile.. ape beze KAWAN and SAHABAT ek?? try to be in the bottom of your life and look who still be there... Sahabat tu akan ada dlm ssh and senang and dy TAK PERNAH bia korang nangis sorg2.. IF korg jumpa sahabat tu.. PLEASE treasure dy.. :D

so.. tu je lahhh.. nak thu lebey2 sile lah beli ke pinjam ke novel ni.. tp jgn jd org da pinjam x reti pulang.. hehhehehehe...
(p/s: have a nice weekend everybody!!! )

crying for no reason.. :'(

salam..

this post is not about anyone.. it just about me.. myself.. my life.. just a luahan hati yg xde org nak bace pon x pe.. heheh..(bajek ader org nak bce je kan..).. pernah x all of the sudden anda rase mcm hopeless sgt.. you crying without a reason.. pelik + ajaib kan? haha.. i know... bila org cakap pon i wouldn't believe him or her.. tp tu yg jadi smlm.. rse mcm xde mood sgt.. depress maybe? but about what? tapi bila bangun pg ni dah oke dah. dah bole gelak2 kutok2 org.. and then i'm think again.. why did i cried yesterday? tp nak thu something x? bgun tidur td nenek call.. dia kata ader relative kitorg yg meninggal (al-fatihah).. but sy x knl pon arwah tu.. tp of course la my parent knl kan? so i just wondering.. ader kaitan ke dgn sye menangis tetibe smalam?? hemm.. a BIG QUESTION MARK there.. but anyway... if kite rase hopeless sgt meet HIM.. recite Quran.. you will find peace there.. In sha Allah..

first novel- Ikhlas A.K written by Nirrosette ~~ ( hidayah comes in very special ways..)

taraaa.~~ oke da jnji kan nak update psl novel.. so first novel is novel kat atas ni lah.. novel ni dah lme.. mayBe ramai yg dah bce.. and kalau belum sile lah bce..( bukan promote tp nak kongsi).. tp x de la lme sgt tp x thu la ader lg x kat kedai2 buku tu~~.. dy punye writer dtg dr negara singa ( jiran je dgn negeri sye. hik2! ).. but gaya penceritaan dy oke je mcm writer kat malaysia ni.. sempoi lah bace novel nie.. 

orait.. so basicly dr ape yg sye paham lah kan (kalau org lain paham lain tataw la. pandangan msing2.. hehehe..)  novel ni menceritakan tentang seorg girl yg kurang basic psl agama in love dgn seorg "ustaz" kat tempat blajar dy tu.. (ops.. ni bukan mcm novel "suami aq ustaz" tu ye.. if korg penah bce la).. you know Allah gives us Hidayah in a special ways.. antara kite sbg hambanya sedar atau x.. bg aq.. rse suke kaseh pd adam tu Allah terbitkan sbb nak kaseh tu igt DIA.. mmg la true kaseh changed because of adam but if she like herself now and rse ikhlas kerana Allah tu akan dtg kan? contohlah.. mse kecik2 kite smyang sbb takot kne rotan dgn ayah kite,. but bila kite dah ader akal benda tu da jd kebiasaan and kite trus solat sbb tahu tu kewajipan kita kan? most people (oke melayu la sng ckp) lahir as a islam. but are we live as a muslim? ( peringatn utk diri ini jgak)

so... this is a love story but it makes me think about my self.. and best utk korg bace ble ader mse2 lapang yg tataw nak buat ape tuhh.. hehehe... meyh sy quote siket dialog or ayat dlm novel nie..

" I don't mind you guiding her. Tapi bukan the other way round. Jangan Adam yg kena heret toward neraka"

"Orang kata, opposite attract. Bad girls go for good guys. True much? Tp jnji Tuhan jgn kita lupa. A good women is for a good man and vise versa seperti dlm surah An-nur ayat 26"

p/s: nak husband cm Adam sorg bole x? hehehe

i told you because i care...

salam magrib semua..

oke ni post kedua utk hari ni. over x? haha. 2 tahun x menulis pastu buat post 1 hari sampai 2 kali.. poyosss bebenorrr kan.. heheee.. ok just nak kongsi sebenarnya.. firstly maaff anai ader sesape yg terase.. kne mintak maaf awal2.. hehe..

ok mcm ni... i know mostly korg ramai yg berkapel kan? tp please... jgn tunjuk smpai awk nak bg thu seluruh dunia yg awak bahgia dgn pkwe awk tu (sbb awk baru kpel syg. kpel bole ptus if x jaga kan? ).. cukuplah sekadar awk dan dy tahu.. kalau awk nk tulis kat fb or lman sosial lain x payah nak tag name dy (bacause i know if he or she care about you he will know that post is for u).. bukan ape.. sbb sy sygg awk2 sume sy bg thu.. sbb nnt bila awk gaduh or ptus dgn dy and awk maki hamun dy kat fb or laman sosoal lain awk yg malu.. kan?

sy thu most of you happy dgn pasangan masing2 and i wish u all the best (kawin jgn lupe jemput. hehhe..).. someone pernah ckp kat sye.. menyayangi seseorg jgn terlalu.. membnci seseorg jgn terlalu.. andai suatu hari nanti perkara sebaliknya berlaku anda tidak sakit yg terlalu.. :)


that all.. have a nice day kawan2.. :)
(p/s: insyaallah esok rsenye mule kot nk buat entry psl novel2 kesayangan. hehe)

our first entry after so many yearssss

ya allah berhabuknyeeeeeeeee blog nie.. last post tahun bile tah.. ha 2011.. haha.. gile x nak dekat 2 tahun bru bukak.. kan.. dah la tetibe bukak pastu nak bebel bukan2 and panjang2.. ngeee.. sorie.. biane~~ ( bajek mcm ader org nak bce pulak blog ko nie kan ziqa) hahaa.. so.~~ 3 years has past.. sijil diploma berjaya dihabeskan even pointer xde lah gempak mne cm org2 yg dapat empat rata tu kan (ok sile jgn jeles., sape suruh awk pemalas nak study cik ziqa) ^^

so nak ckp Alhamdulilah syukir akhirnya berjaya jgak and sekarang ni menjadi penanam anggur yg berjaya... hehee.. next step degree pulak.. hopefully berjaya lahh.. hurmm.. kuatnye persaingan skrg ni... anyway.. hope sesape je hamba allah yg membaa post ni doakan yg terbaik k.. :) till next time.. :)